B’s mother-in-law passed away early Sunday morning per her own request to be removed from the ventilator and not resuscitated. I spent the night with B and Flash’s kids on Friday night when it looked like she wouldn’t make it through the night. She rallied a bit on Saturday but by nightfall things were looking grim again. J and I received a phone call at 11 PM on Saturday night saying this was probably it. J rushed over to be with the kids while I stayed home with ours. By 4 AM on Sunday morning Flash’s mom was gone.
I am comforted that she is finally pain free and in a much better place but I feel so helpless. As a result, I cooked like crazy all Sunday. I delivered 2 meals complete with sides and pumpkin rolls for dessert. Then I ran the causeway to burn off the rest of my anxiety. I wish there was more I could do to console them.
I doubt B will ever forget her 40th birthday. And not in a good way. I brought over her presents and the decorations that I had been working on for her surprise party that never happened. It saddens me to know that she was not able to view the giant cut-out 4 and 0 made up of old black & white photos from her past with joy. And the “40 Sucks” lollipop bouquet kind of lost its funniness amidst such turmoil.
I hope that we will be able to celebrate one day when pain from this loss has lessened a bit. For now, I’ll always be a phone call away.
Adventures of Four 