J is in DC again this week. It has been a tough time for me. I guess I haven’t felt completely “right” ever since the Mother’s Day program at my son’s school. The whole quick march of time, kids growing up, me growing old thing. Ugh! It’s overwhelming to think that I pretty much have a first grader and another son who will be entering his last year of preschool. J taking off for a week just compounded my crumminess. Pile on loneliness and I feel even lower.
On Wednesday Cutie Pie refused to take a nap at his normal nap time. I figured he could probably hang until bed time but I was wrong. I found him soundly slumbering in our living room when I emerged from my shower after teaching Zumba. I had big plans to keep really busy so I would not dwell on the fact that I missed J so much. I wanted to take the boys for pizza at our favorite little spot on the beach. When I couldn’t rouse Cutie Pie from his nap, Wildman and I chose to order a pizza instead.
Wildman and I went out front to enjoy the unusually cool temperatures we’ve recently experienced while we waited for the delivery guy to bring dinner. I used the stop watch app on my iphone to time his bike ride down to the corner and back. I also timed his sprint from our front yard to our neighbor’s tree and back. We played a bit of hopscotch on the sidewalk too. He wanted me to draw the game squares up to number 20. I told him I’d number squares until my chalk ran out. I got up to number 14. He did the rest up to 20. Cutie Pie continued to saw logs…
Our pizza finally arrived after half an hour or so. Wildman suggested eating on his playground clubhouse platform which I thought was a terrific idea. The cool breeze, setting sun and sweet little boy company made for a perfect dining experience. Cutie Pie would not budge from his place of rest on the leather chair…
We even brought out some peanuts to put on the fence for the squirrels.
Eventually Cutie Pie woke up, the sun sank low and we retreated indoors for baths, books and bed time. I admit that I’m still in a kind of funk, an emotional mess, if you will, but those precious moments with Wildman made me realize just how wonderful life is. The simple pleasures of a shared hopscotch game and a slice of pizza in the spring breeze are what life is all about.
I am blessed.